Be my guest

August 26, 2024


I can never just greet my grief

tell her to stay as long as she needs

give her a shoulder to cry on 

instead I drag her into a dark room

and try to dress her up

make her into a pretty presentable thing

worthy of mine and other people's time and attention

I wipe her tears before they can fall

and tell her to put on a brave face

that tears are unproductive

turn it to poetry or testimony 

and move on

don't know how to make space for her

feel like if I let her tears flow freely 

it'll flood the house

threaten if she doesn't shut up

I'm gonna lock her up 

hoping she'll go away 

until the cycle starts over

and I start to hear her bangs

because sadness unseen turns into rage

what was once my inner child needing space

is now a monster that needs to be tamed 

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