eye candy

why is finding commitment the equivalent of cracking morse code

never been good at math

got me wishing I had worn my more revealing top at out meetup

but I am not eye candy meant to be unwrapped, devoured, and disposed of 

I am a catch but not prey 

I am home but not property 

I am a prize but not a trophy 

I am a rose that stops you in your tracks 

because I was once a seed in your dreams

and then there I was in full bloom right before you


No I don't slut shame

but maybe you're a whore

who is not into me

because you prefer seduction and instant satisfaction

don't have the curiosity to uncover

the infitinite layers of intimacy and lovemaking 

not just slapping skin

but souls in divine recognition


No I'm not a prude I just have principles

forever loyal to my First Love 

so no matter how much I want to moan your name

or be that cigarette between your teeth 

I know if you really liked me 

you'd be willing to wait 

and take pleasure in undressing other parts of me 

until we can embrace each other fully

my intuition is yelling 

he prefers the type of girl who warms his bed not his heart

but I want someone who envisions a future to build with me

not how good of a fucking I'd be 









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