unrequited love got me messed up

It feels unfair that the traumatized 

aka the most love-deprived

need to fulfill the prerequisite of healing

before they can receive 

a class I keep failing 

third try was not the charm 

the furthest I got?

no bases just what couldn't even be called a first date

maybe interview

where I was fan girl

and he was an obliging celebrity 

who could schedule in a quickie 

ego stroke of pity 

that's all I was

someone to inflate his head 

so he can reach new heights

without thinking of me 

while I so easily saw him as a missing piece to the grand sche(me) of things


I wonder if God let such a wretched feeling like unrequited love exist so we know how He feels


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