one thing I desire

August 1st

you accused me of romanticizing

is that such a bad thing?

darling I give you full permission

to pour out the type of affection

that covers a multitude of flaws

see what you got wrong is

I saw all your cons

but I didn't define you by them 

instead I chose to see

all the good God grew in you

the heart that's kind to the core

the ego that didn't need to be stroked

but rather cradled into consolation

I saw how despite the trials and tribulations

you chose to forgive

to hope

to be part of the change this world needs

yes I saw the red flags

but I like to believe in people's capabilites

to be set free from captivity

bc that's where I once was

but God delivered me

you accused me of putting you on a pedestal

and I corrected you

bc that spot is reserved for my Lord and Savior

but yes I have a little thing called empathy and understanding

something you didn't see yourself as worthy of receiving 

not going to harden my heart even though yours grew cold toward me

she has other sources to channel towards

like growing in her relationship with God

He is her light and water

and He is planting her

to prosper not wither

I thought you were Gods gift for me

but I'm learning you were just another test

meant to fortify me in the waiting

part of the devils strategic scheme

to catch me slipping

but all he's really doing is positioning me for further blessing

I used to fear the closer I got to God the more the devil would be after me

but what's different now is he has no power over me

and I really started thinking

what do I have that he wants so badly?

he must me trying to mess with my ann(pp)ointing 

setting up traps to block me at every opportunity 

Good thing the Lord protects me

And I realized the safest place I can be 

That which I will seek

Is simply His dwelling